Let Go

For a little while I’ve been thinking on a decision that I need to make. I’ve been agonizing over it and weighing the pros, cons, and all the in between. It has been on my mind so much during my waking and sleeping times. Then it was as if I was hit between the eyes. That my struggle in the bigger scheme of things was unnecessary. This wasn’t life or death. Heck it wasn’t even a paper cut. It was a blip. A microscopic thing. So miniscule that once done life would go on as in a slightly different way but not enough to matter. I had thought so much about the problem when all I needed to do was let go. Whew two little words that was so hard to come to.

I’m stubborn so this is a foreign concept to me. I don’t like not doing something or at least having a resolution to that issue. So to just let go wasn’t something I had even thought of. All that time wondering, thinking and planning how to go about what I needed to decide wasn’t needed. That it wasn’t a situation that warranted so much attention. But again go back to the part where I am stubborn. (grin) My stubbornness left me blinded to the other more feasible option. Let Go.

Once I came to the realization it was such a relief. Not that I was letting go but that I realized that my letting go wasn’t going to change anything. In my mind I know that I can’t control other or what they want to do. I can only control my actions and reactions. In this case I choose what to do. Because it was the best course of action to take. It wasn’t just walking away. It was my claiming my decision and knowing that it was time to let go.